I've just finished my weekly meditation and I feel fantastic but I ask myself okay what's next? The last several weeks have been interesting. I had a polyp removed...and of course while I waited for the results I tried to remain focused and positive but every now and then I slipped into the fear. A couple of days ago I was told everything is great and was given a clean bill of health.

Now I say what's next with life. I know it's too appreciate what I have already and I definitely do. I guess I'm being a bit greedy and want more.  I don't want to wait for life to happen to me. I want to go after it all. After all, I think the universe has granted me a great big chance to do it without any burdens or worries. I'm open to all new things and I guess this is my call to the universe to say -  "I'm ready..."

I still wonder what's next... but I'm curiously optimistic 

Life has been going by a lightening speed... and I want to send a great big thank you to the universe for having blessed me with the idea for the Eye of the Warrior novel... it gave me a tremedous gift by helping capture a journey in the light.

I recently received my first royalty check for 69 books sold.... Seeing that in the mailbox was an awesome feeling. I say thank you for that too.

I also want to thank all of you who check out my website and downloaded the book... for anyone you that haven't I'll be posting chapter 1 on my website shortly.

 This was my final dream before I woke this morning. It shook me to my core, mostly because I felt no fear. It almost felt like an awakening... a rebirth. I am grateful to God and the Universe for the gift I was given and I just wanted to share.

 

Tidal Wave

It was a bright and sunny day on a tropical beach.

Family and friends surrounded me.

It was a happy day, but I had the urge to use the bathroom.

There was one on the beach, very close to the shore.

As I went in and looked back outside through the open door, the ground shook.

Like a seesaw, the ground sloped left then right.

I closed the door and locked it with a key from the inside then I sat on the toilet.

Then I heard screams and the ground shook again.

The keys fell from my hands.

I stood up, looked out of the screened-window and saw the sea had receded and a tidal wave was headed straight for us.

I looked down to the floor to find the key.

There were many shinny new gold keys at my feet.

I tried one but it did not open the door.

I tore through the screen and climbed out of the window.

I ran a few feet then looked back.

The wave was too large and coming to fast.

Something told me that it was just my time, and I was not afraid.

I faced away from the wave, opened my arms and for a micro second thought of everything spiritual in my life - heaven, the hell I was taught to fear, my relationship with God and the Universe.

I closed my eyes, took a deep breath and thanked God for this life and somehow I knew there'd be no pain.

The water engulfed me and suddenly I felt free and unafraid of what was coming next.

My eyes opened my eyes to a bright new morning filled with a great sense of peace.

© 2007 Nikkolas Cruz

Couple weeks ago, I was reading an article in Science of Mind magazine about how dreams are messages from God/The Universe and how to recall more of your dreams so that you can interpret them and figure out what God/The Universe is trying to tell you. They say to write down as much as you can remember of the dream and then meditate on it and do some free writing on it to see how it all relates to your conscious life.

A few nights ago I dreamed three dreams that I feel have significance. I'm still working to decipher what The Universe is trying to tell me. I'm posting the dreams, in sequence, below.

If anyone as any ideas of what they mean, I'd love to hear back from you.

 

Girl at the Bar

I was standing at a bar with a large bag, a binder and a pen.

Not sure if I was a man or a woman.

The woman drinking next to me stared and seemed to smirk.

I was afraid of her. Not sure why but I was.

As the crowd gathered, I decided to move away.

Now the woman that I thought smirked at me before appeared friendly.

I still moved away, somewhere high up to what appeared to be the balcony of an old theater.

There I watched comfortable but alone.

Talking Dog

A man walked into an apartment where I seemed to be hiding.

He had a large dog with a short black coat - a lab or a mutt maybe

The man ignored me and went up a flight of stairs but the dog came right to me.

I sat on the floor leaning against the wall.

The dog growled and I was afraid.

I tried to back away but I did not want to make any sudden moves.

Then the dog spoke to me.

I can't remember what he said, but I knew I understood him and thought, oh shit, a talking dog.

I finally felt less afraid.

He no longer growled.

I stood and we both walked into the kitchen for a bite to eat.

Men on Spiral Staircase

I was shopping in a mall.

I was distressed looking for the men's department but could only see the women's and children's.

I wanted to walk down a spiral staircase, but one man blocked my way as he spoke to another.

I was afraid to say pardon me.

Not sure why. They were big masculine men and I was afraid of them.

I became more distressed wandering the floor and later returning to see if they'd moved.

They hadn't.

When I finally did ask the man to let me by, he did without a problem and the other ask why I was so distressed.

I told him I was looking for the men's department.

He told me where it was, but I was still distressed.

When he noticed my apprehension, he told me he'd show me the way.

The book has just been released and there's a Q&A with yours truly on the publishers website... click here to for the interview and bio

Eye of the Warrior: The Awakening

Marty Cortez is having a bad night; he's been attacked, run down, and he's hearing voices. It's only going to go downhill from there, as his world is ripped apart and all that he knows becomes suspect. There has to be someone he can trust amongst the people surrounding him, but he's going to have to learn how to see them through the eye of a warrior to know who they are.

Go to my website - www.nikkolascruz.com to read more and to see how you can join Marty on his quest.

I was listening to Larry King on Thursday night and several of the authors of the book The Secret were on along with several supporters and maybe even more detractors... I was amazed at the insanity of the those shooting down the idea that having a positive attitude in life is a good thing. Most of them sounded as if they were expecting to get everything they desired by snapping their fingers or blinking their eyes.

The Secret's a great thing... but it does take work, focus and determination to achieve your goals.  Here's how I see it -

True success is not soley achieved by visualizing what you want (though it makes for a nice dangling carrot). It comes when you have the willingness to act and the patience and determination to stick with it.

Simply put... you have to actually get up off your asses to do something.

Okay... let me do a back flip off my soapbox.

BTW -

The website has been updated - new content added - a cool track... click here to check it out!!!

Nurture the garden of your soul

And what you'll reap is a spirit that soars...

Nikkolas Cruz